Welcome! It’s so nice to see you again. What would you like? Coffee? Tea? Lemon water? Some buckwheat and pear pancakes? Have a seat. How have you been? How was your week?
If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that it’s been a tough week for me. I had a lot of work, which, of course, is a good thing, but it also meant I neglected this blog and had barely any time to write. The weather has been typically autumnal, which has meant little sun and lots of rain and clouds. This has had a devastating effect on my psyche. It’s been a struggle to just keep at my regular levels of activity and motivation. This brings on fears of dipping into depression, which can be a self-fulfilling prophecy.
I’ve been trying to be gentle with myself and to self-care. I’m trying to stay positive, because I realize how much how I look at things affects how I feel. I also remind myself that I am not my feelings – they are just passing states. As you can see, the weather today is actually quite beautiful. It’s partially sunny; the sky is a lovely shade of blue.
If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that I lucked out yesterday. I decided to go to a thrift store that sells things from Great Britain – mostly from outlet stores – and there I got so super lucky. I found a Halloween costume for just a few bucks. I’m going to be a skeleton. I also found a hooded sweatshirt jumpsuit that is the prettiest shade of blue. I’d say a cross between royal blue and turquoise. I’m set for winter lounging and writing. I don’t know what it is about sitting and writing at the computer, but I always get cold. I also found a pretty sweater dress; it’s light gray with a big red rose print all over. I’m not big into flower prints, but this is so graphic that I love it. I’m a big fan of sweater dresses. It’s become my look: sweater dress, skinny jeans, and converse.
If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that I’ve been having a hard time writing flash fiction recently, which you may have noticed considering I haven’t posted any in recent weeks. What’s the problem? Well, my novel has been knocking at the door reminding me that I need to get back to it. Until recently, the knocking was light and tolerable, so I was able to ignore it. Now it’s more of a banging and barging in type of situation. Needless to say, I can’t think of anything else. I’m revisiting and slowly starting the next draft, which I just decided to completely rewrite. I know the story, but I hope I’ll be better with wording this time around.
This leads me to a difficult decision that I feel I must make. I have decided to reduce posting on here for some time and really allow myself to delve back into the novel. I might do NaNoWriMo as a rebel, but I don’t know if there’s any sense in doing so, as I don’t think I have any chance to write 50k words in November and I don’t want to rush myself. This isn’t the first draft.
Thanks for stopping by, but now you must go. I’m working on a post on Slavic Mares for Part-Time Monster; it’ll go live on Monday, so make sure you’ll check it out. Also, on Monday Diana of Part-Time Monster will be here with a guest post on Bram Stoker’s Dracula. In November, I’ll be part of the Criterion Blogathon.